Hello, hello! It has been a long time since I posted here and this will likely be my last post , because as you see in the title, I'm taking myself out of the running.
I imagine you're thinking to yourself that I am giving up on my journey and going back to my old ways and what-not. But that is totally not the case at all! I am going to continue with my journey. I am going to continue to eat well. Because God gave us one body, a temple and I will continue taking care of Gods gift. I will never ever meet the "earthly standard" of beauty. I am a short, thick momma. I have had 2 pregnancies. I have had 2 c-sections and a hysterectomy. I have weighed 235 pounds at 4 foot 11 inches tall. I have lost 65 pounds and I will never be a size 0 and you know what? I am okay with that because I have a body that can run and play with my kids, that can ride a bicycle, that can dance and act silly. Arms that can hold my children and throw them a ball. A body that my husband still finds attractive after everything that it has been through. I am good enough for me.
Y'all, I have been on this journey almost three years and have shared every.single.bit of it and I'm tired. I'm tired of keeping up with everything. I'm tired of competing and waiting hoping for likes or shares. I'm tired of waiting on validation in a comment that I am indeed good enough because you know what? I am enough. God tells me I am enough. God loves me and if no one else in this world did, God loving me is good enough for me.
My sweet friend in Christ, Cassia Hope, said something that hit me like a ton of bricks. She said, "I'm done living for the applause of this earth. My treasure is in Heaven and I live for an audience of One!" Y'all. Praise Jesus! Yes!!! This hits the nail on the head and is truth in every word.
God has a divine calling for my life and that is to be a wife, a mother and a home school momma. God has put me where He wants me to be and I am just fine with that!
I am surrendering. I am laying down my journey. I am claiming my freedom.
Thank you all for being here with me through my journey. I love you all.
A special thank you to you, Cassia Hope, for helping me more than you can possibly know.